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I sure do love drawing!

(I want to rip out my fucking eyes.)

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My dream!

Hi there? Meet me, Silvia.

That’s me trying to pose for freedom and happiness, well sort of. A bit story about myself, I’m a tiny looking kind of woman who dreams about big things. That’s why I came to the Truth and Love, why? Simply because, only the Truth can set you free and love gives you the power to conquer all. So as the result I unleash one of my great talents, writing. I once did a self publishing called 17+, where I talked about the true growth in there, that to be honest with you, I don’t recommend at all for you to do the self publishing thingy.

I’m currently still studying Politic, why? Because lots of people tell me that Politic is DIRTY, and that’s exactly the reason why! I love to clean things up. But just because somehow someday you find me talk about politic more than to God, that doesn’t mean I believe in politic more than to God, that God is getting less in my life. No! Let me tell you something, that politic and shit ain’t gonna help us anyway. Like any other things, government is supposed to be made for a good reason, now it helps the world to create hell. The system is run in here is such a mess, you are lucky if they happen to take care of you, you need to take care of yourself. Not to mention dealing with my so called daily life where there are  internal affirs in it, where do youthink I go? To a cliff? Yes of course to something that is right.

Heaven is not real, hell is! Just look at out there! Let’s make America hell again! I guess what I heard from the campaign. A bunch of pigs (dirty people) can’t run a country I’m telling you, and God knows I’m not a fan of Obama either.

Enough with the politic and shit, let’s go back to the purpose of this writing I maybe new or old one to you in here, well let’s see that later. It all depends on you, not me definitely I just serve something that is for you to buy. If you are for me, you are for me, if you are not for me, no matter what I say to you, you’ll never be mine, so don’t waste your time, go find something else that you think is for you! Don’t let me to stand in your way, find your way.

The presence maybe new in here, but I bet the feeling must be old. Anyway one of my favorite things to do is to pour out my thoughts into words. That’s why I’m in here, to facilitate one of my passions. I like to educate people, not because I’m trying to make myself look like a very honorable one, but simply because it’s a right to do. I LIKE TO TELL PEOPLE THE TRUTH, lack of knowledge CAN LEAD us to certain problems… just admit it!

So just like any ordinary person, I like to start to write concerning my dream. I bet everybody has a dream, who else in here has the same one? Please raise your hands class. Today I want to talk to you about my dream, I think everybody has a dream right? You have to; I mean without it you have nothing to drive you further to go after it.

I bet you are starting to wonder of what exactly is my dream? Well I have lots of dreams actually, just like you, I dreamed to be a successful person in my life, whether it’s in my career or my love story. Go to beautiful places that I never see. Just like any other kids, I always wanted to make my parents to feel happy and be proud of me. I have a list of wishes in life; let me tell you some of it.

You know me and my dad have something in common, we love to watch tennis tournaments on TV. He actually was the one who pretty good at tennis; he got some trophies from playing some local tennis tournaments long time ago, I am not a pro in tennis, the racket itself sometimes is too heavy for me. So far I am pretty content with watching the tournaments through the lens of my plasma TV. Now the racket becomes pretty much junk in the house, yeah pretty sad, sorry daddy I can never be the next Sharapova.

Sometimes we even yelled at the TV as if it was us who tried to teach the players of how to play tennis well. We love to make sounds concerning our responds to the movements and actions being done by the tennis players, like we know what to do. It was like, “To the left, to the left. Hurry, hurry, move faster. Don’t go that way, you should have taken this way”.

You know all kinds of sounds that will make someone who hears it will get annoyed because of it, not to mention some of our body reflexes as the result of being carried away by what we watched at that time. However who cares? For me it is one of the unforgettable moments I have with my dad. And guess what, I will give everything for me to have that kind of simple moment again with him.

Because of that particular moment that I cherish so well deep inside, without being noticed by him, I promise to myself that one day I will take my dad to one of Wimbledon matches to see the match with his own eyes, instead of through the lens of television. It’s not about what we watch but the time when spend together. Our favorite tennis player at that time was Novak Djokovic, in fact he became the winner of world championship tournament in tennis.

I even watched once of Djokovic commercial on TV. I forgot what it was about; I mean the product he was campaigning, but I remember some lines from the commercial. I think the essence of the commercial was the message he was told. Something that caught my heart. Something sounded like it was my loved ones who keep drive me to keep moving or something like that.

Actually this is not about that particular tennis player I want to talk about. Not that I try to disrespect him, he is good I believe. It’s just at that time I happened to follow the progress of tennis in the world thanks to dad. All I know that it was Rafael Nadal who used to hold the number 1 in tennis records like ATP or something like that for a while. And somehow there was a new kid from the block who beat the reigning champion, turned he was known as Djokovic.

I even read about him once as a random reading material, I forgot where I was reading the article whether it was on newspaper or online.  Well the thing is it was said that Novak Djokovic doesn’t even play anymore; for he is putting his focus on his family at the moment. So technically he is off the tennis court. However I do believe chances are, he will play again on the court, for he is still young and in a good shape. Well I don’t even know whether he is already on the court again or not now.

Actually what I want to emphasize on is, do believe that miracle does happen to those who believe. When some news told that Djokovic is off the court at the moment, instead somehow it makes me to feel even more to raise my hope, for in something impossible you can see the divine power being displayed.

In fact I love if he decides to take a long break, so when he plays again when God blesses me with means to watch the tennis match where he is in it, it means so much to us. We will feel so special because I believe it is God who grants us such opportunity, I mean what a coincidence.

You see it is not easy to make a world champion to play on court again. Even if you offer him with lots and lots of money, he will not do it if he doesn’t want to do it. For I believe he already earned quite money from his career that’s why he can take a break for a while. Unless the world champion becomes poor all of the sudden, yeah he probably takes whatever kind of offer he can find.  So it’s really up to the world champion.

My dream is to make Djokovich to drag himself to the tennis court to play before me and my father before the world ends. And together cheer at him, just like we used to do at home, and I don’t even care if he is going to throw us with his tennis racket and even his shoes because he can’t stand with us being countrified, or rustic or whatever the term for it. And to be honest I don’t even care if he is going to win it or lose it in front of us.  It’s just I like to feel something that is real; I want everything to be real.

Once again, it was not about that particular tennis player, it’s just accidentally we followed someone who somehow beat the long-term world champion in a particular sport, the difference is it happened to be someone called as Djokovic. The thing is we followed his journey, from when he used to be the underdog in tennis world till he became the world champion, inspiring. It’s like we get jump in through his journey.

Somehow when it is said that the tennis player that me and my dad used to watch, doesn’t play anymore, it dares me to keep believing that one day, the picture in my mind will come true. That one day, me and my dad will together sit in the most prestigious tournament of tennis Wimbledon and watch the tennis player who we knew plays before our very eyes, instead of on TV. While yelling, screaming, laughing, getting excited, just really to express everything we want, to do something when we are at home the difference is we do it outside the house.

However when I said I want to watch a prestigious tennis tournament with my dad, that was not my biggest dream there is another one. Do you want to know of my biggest dream? Why I said the biggest? Because it literally has something to do with size. Well let us stop all the talks in the beginning, and start to get to the point, so you can understand more of what I am trying to say in here..

It’s so simple that I literally dream about something big, IT’S A DINOSAUR! “EXCUSE ME??!!” I KNOW! It sounds crazy, doesn’t it? Well let me do that again!  

So here let me tell you of my biggest dream, I DREAM LITERALLY BIG, IT’S A DINOSAUR, well it’s technically a prehistoric creature or some sort. As an innocent child I pray to God that one day I can witness with my own eyes, the real dinosaur on earth. “WAIT? WHAT?!!” Yes! Not like most people, I dream about dinosaur when everybody tries to grow up and forget about their childhood fantasy, but don’t get me wrong we should have grown day by day and leaved our childish ways. Let me give you the picture of my “big” dream.

 to be continued....